Hi dear friends,
I know I skipped Sunday Post last week and my daily blogmas events aside I have been quite MIA this last week but there is an explanation…
Some of you might recall that my dad was diagnosed with T4 cancer in August without any hope to survive except going through a very heavy surgery that would have left him crippled for life.
As he was already amputated from one leg and had his bladder removed he considered that it was enough. He rejected the surgery and we knew he was condemned to die within weeks or months.
My mom and I respected his choice as he would have been the one living even more diminished.
Last week his health suddenly deteriorated and he decided to ask for an end to his condition.
He fell asleep and died peacefully Monday 10 december.
This week and the weekend before have been really exhausting, sad and painful for my mom and I.
I had bottled up everything inside since August as I had to be strong for both of them. I kept it together till Friday, the day of the funerals. I am still feeling very very tense and “weird” with a killer headache since Thursday.
I am explaining this not to have your pity because it was unavoidable but to shed a light on my lack of interaction this past week.
No meme (Top 5 Tuesday or I Heart Characters or First Impression Friday), not much happening if not for the daily posts I had scheduled ahead. Honestly I know I try to make you smile or laugh at the end of the day but I was too emotional to be my jokester self.
Amidst the sadness I would really like to say that I am grateful.
I am grateful because my dad NEVER suffered from his cancer. It was really important for us , his family.
I am grateful because he left under his terms, with dignity, surrounded by love.
I am grateful for my mom’s family. Her brothers and sisters have been fantastic, keeping her company every evening since my father’s death, cooking for my mom and relieving me from a big weight.
I am grateful for the priest who understood so well what we needed and helped us to have a beautiful celebration.
I am grateful for the people at the “funeral home (?)” (please correct me if this is not the right term) as they really guided my mom and I. They helped us enormously throughout all the things we had to do this week.
I am stopping here but I would like to say: enjoy your loved ones and live your life to the fullest. Be kind with other people and learn to forgive. Life is too short to dwell on negative feelings and it is love that makes it worth living.
Let’s get to what happened on the blog now (click on the graphic to read the post)
I have read four books and reviewed three of them so far. I must confess that my attention span was that of a gnat and I had a very hard time focusing on the books.
I have read Honor Among THieves by Rachel Caine and Ann Aguirre (5 stars an HUGE CRUSH!) ; Steal Me by India R Adams (3 stars); Two Feet Under by CC Hunter (4,5 stars and just what I needed!); Queen of Air and Darkness by Cassandra Clare (4,5 stars and review to come).
If you are interested in reading my #BestBooksof2018 here are my daily posts:
Oh I did one meme before my father’s death and I think you’ll love this one as I tweaked the titles of books.
In the blogosphere
As I said I tried to follow, comment and like erratically. I managed to read some very interesting posts that I’d like to share below.
Ashley @ashsinfinitelibrary talks about sex in YA
Irina @drunkenanimeblog gives us her top reasons to blog
And something funny at Epicreads:A test: would you survive a Fearie court? I confess that I did not survive! 😀
Now I will do my best to get back with some upbeat tone and participate in the weekly memes but maybe I’ll need some more time.
As usual I am linking to The Sunday post at Kimberly @caffeinatedreviewer
Anyway I wish you all a wonderful and warm Sunday!
Thanks for reading.